dreamers..

jewel box

last night was weird?! not just last night.. but yesterday. weird.

i have no sense of belonging, i feel like everywhere i go i get staired at?! i dont even look that outrageous.. i just have some long hair?! anyways i spent yesterday with my old friend jarel. it was kinda ridiculous. anyways we ended up at his friend house somewhere downtown!? maybe uptown..? maybe east village?!

well whatever it was she let me sleep on her roomates bed, it was very kind of her. oh! her!? my new friend, jarels old manager  named, “Kat” anyways this chick is freakin bad ass.. rocks a cool bike, a specialized langster.. anyways i was laying in her roomates bed- who was out of the country.. and it was the first time i slept in a bed in a room in a long long time. besides hotels of course.. anyways it was weird. it was like i was intruding in someone elses room.. it was so comfortable yet so foreign.. number one the feeling of being in a bed. number two being in a bed room and number three it was someone elses bed and room.. ahaha.. well anyways it was weird.. jarel was so drunk and acting a fool.. jarel if your reading this.. YOU ARE RETARDED! his faggot ass tried making out with my ear.. the fuck!? i know i have long hair but shiiittttt.. that is crossing the line.

anyways im not at my moms house and i want to leave.. frisco, LA, vegas.. something!